Finally the day is here! I am finally TWENTY. Now I wonder what I’ll be doing 10 years down the road. I do hope I’d be married. With kids? I don’t know. I do like the whole thing about being pregnant and having the kid of your won DNA but at the same time, I just wish I could adopt. Sometimes I can be a little biased towards kids. I only like the good ones. Or just my very own nephews and nieces. You other cute little pudgy but annoying brats are not on my list. Yeah, you may be cute and your parents are rich and hot but so what? You’re just some annoying spoilt rotten weasels.
I went to school today but that does not mean I went to class. I was already late and I had planned the day before that I am going to skip third meeting. I reached school with about 30 minutes left before it’s time for second break. What kind of a student would come for class only for 30 minutes than leave? I am not going to be the one. I actually met Esna without making any plans at the MRT platform. We were actually in the same train. I was just glad I bumped into her. After that, we met Adam at the bus interchange and we went to school together. Since Esna is in some sort of complication with her school attendance, I’d rather she went to class despite how much I wanted my friends to spend the day with me. But I am the birthday girl so people should heed the birthday girl’s request. So Adam and Esna went to class. Yay! And then I went off to hang with Ryna at E5. She was actually having a dance practice.
I left school somewhere near 2pm to meet Esli at Orchard. We are going to the Botanic Gardens to just sit, chill and talk. Honestly, it is nice to just hang out at the garden once in awhile. I hate town at the moment, with so much construction going on. It is already hot, the walkways are cramped, followed by many shoppers around and what more the dust particles filling the air. Oh my god, it’s killing me! Okay, back to the garden… yeah, it’s really nice and relaxing. Away from the hustle and bustle of the fast-moving town. As the evening grew near and the sun is finally setting, I felt like pitching a tent and just sleep in there. Thanks Esli for spending the day with me. And the cookies, they’re delicious!
I had to break fast at home so we left the garden at 530pm. We walked to Orchard and took the bus home. I ate dinner and before I could finish it, I had to cut the cake because my brother is already leaving for work. Father bought a fruit cake and it’s yummy-licious. There were lots of cream and yeah, it’s legan… wait for it… dary! Haha, I’m sorry, I am so in love with Barney Stinson, the wacky character in How I Met Your Mother. Oh, guess what? I got a birthday card too, with everyone in the family writing their well wishes for me. Nice! Thanks people. Once again, I’m flattered.
The whole cake; the cut cake.
Isn't the birthday card so cute? And the messages written inside.
Esna, thanks for the sweet PowerPoint slides. 3 years of friendship? Wow! Time really flies when you’re having fun! Love you, dear. Adawiyah, my independent sister from a different set of parents, thank you so much for leaving me sooo many comments on all my different networking sites. Rock on, girl!
Thank you everyone, for your messages and calls. It’s really nice to know that there are people who remember you and knowing that I am in your mind, it’s just amazing. I had never told people what I want for my birthday. It is just not me to ask for anything. Every year, it’s just the same to me. It’s never fancy… fasting month or not. This is the third year my birthday falls on the holy month of Ramadhan. I feel blessed but at the same time, it felt like a little bit on the disadvantage side. Maybe one day, I would tell them all my wishes and wants. And someday, it’ll be the perfect birthday I could ever dreamed of.
Last but not least, I had bought new shoes! It’s a purple Nike dunk shoes. Very nice, I like! Thanks to my father who had promised me to buy me new shoes.
You know what? I just had to add this in. I was shocked to see a birthday card. So I blurted out, “Eh, there’s a card too?” And my mother replied, “Yeah, you’re daddy’s girl, aren’t you?” Hmm… I love you too, Mum.
I wanted to blog last night but I was feeling so tired. For a moment I felt confused. I don’t know why. There were so many things in my head and I don’t know where to start. I hate being in that situation. And to know that my birthday is coming real soon, I don’t want to feel that way. I hope tonight will be alright. So anyway, I decided not to blog. My initial plan was to blog about all the breaking fast times with my dear friends. But there were so many pictures to choose from so I couldn’t take it. Perhaps I’ll do it some other time.
Yesterday I went to a talk with Mark, Fyzzah, Namira, Hafiz and Azhar. Adam was supposed to come but he had to do some work first. But in the lecture theatre, we saw Clarisse (Puteri) and her friend. Watching movie, aye? Naughty! Never listen to the talk. Haha! I think the talk isn’t much of a help but who cares, right? Well, at least to me. Or should I take that back? Okay, forget it. Mark was being irritating by taking pictures of us. The light from my camera phone was blinding me! And he just had to keep taking the pictures “secretly” like trying to hide from getting caught. Didn’t work Mark, it’ll never work with you. Last thing I want to get is my handphone being confiscated.
Namira and Mark.
Hafiz and Fyzzah.
Azhar is acting shy. That bastard. Ooops!
I like this picture of myself!
After school, I had IG training. I was supposed to go to Queensway Shopping Centre last night to buy shoes with my father but because I came home late, we couldn’t. Also, my future sister-in-law came to our house to break fast.
I’m in school right now but later, I’m going to my cousin’s house. Going to see my nephew and then going back home together. And after breaking fast tonight, I’m going to buy new shoes with my father. Well, hopefully.
I’ll update soon with more pictures of other breaking fast pictures okay? Hopefully that will happen.
Oh yeah, did I mention, I bought the Tapoyaki last night at the bazaar at Woodlands. And I got an extra ball! Nice.
Countdown: 2 more days!
Three days had past and I did not update my blog daily like how I am supposed to. I’m sorry, I was just too tired. Two nights in a row, I was home late. I break fast outside. So tonight, I’m going to update because my birthday is nearing every single day and I do not want to miss the countdown.
So I met Vivien at the airport, along with Nana and Hayat. I was actually late because I had to stop by some shops at Causeway Point to search for something. I wanted to surprise Vivien but since I was late and I don’t want to miss her, I text her. She had touched down when I was still in the train towards Changi Airport. When I reached the belt, Hayat told me she was still inside. Phew! So I was on time. Yay!
We waited for her outside the gate. It felt like she was bringing her whole apartment and she was waiting for a whole long time for the stuffs to be brought out on the conveyor belt. And finally, her big orange baggage came out and she was all ready to meet us. Woohoo! As she walked out of the gate, we were like squeaking her name out because we were so excited to see her again. I think for once we made her feel like a celebrity. Haha! We didn’t hang out long because the time to breaking fast was nearing and we had to go. I just pass her the bear I brought for her and then we talked for awhile. Jewel was there too and it was so cute and adorable.
Last night, I had another round of breaking fast outside. This time at Banquet, Causeway Point with Adam, Esna, Mark, Fir and Ryna. Mark was actually late because I heard he overslept? My goodness. I had a last minute thingy with my IG so I met Ryna, Adam and Esna at a later time. And then we sat at Banquet while waiting for the last two “homies” to come. As usually, with these people around, there are bound to be noise and stares. Haha.
After breaking fast, we walked around the pasar malam first before meeting Ryna again at a void deck because she had dance practice. We sat, chilled, talked, and laughed, discussed and mock. Mark and Esna found this very beautiful male cat and I was so intrigued by its colour, charm and beauty. It have a coat that’s the same colour as my old cat that went missing, just that it doesn’t have stripes and the colour isn’t too dark. I like its eyes because it’s very mesmerizing. It has a face that resembles Siberian Husky and I felt like chopping off its head and bringing it home. Yes, just the head. The cat wasn’t afraid of us and it was following us around to the dance practice area until Mr. Fir was scared. That was so funny.
There were so many things going on. From taking weird pictures to discussing things that could make the residents complain about our presence. But that is the life teenagers that don’t have a life, literally. In the end, I reached home close to midnight. And I just heard that Esna almost missed the last bus home. I wanted to be online when I got home but I was too tired and sleepy. Plus, my brother borrowed my laptop and I fell asleep waiting for him to finish.
When I reached the carpark area at my void deck, the resident cat saw me and it started to follow me when I was near it. I called it to come into the lift with me but it refused. And as you had guessed, yes, I went back down to feed it. Oh yeah, at midnight. Trust me, it isn’t the first time.
And did I mention I made a video on Mark’s birthday? Haha, 3 months later and finally I made it. I had shown it to my friends and they all loved it. So most probably I’ll upload it in YouTube since everyone is cool with it. :)
Countdown: 5 more days!
I was late for school today. I took my time to get changed at home while I played with my cat. After I left home, as I was walking down the stairs, I heard the stray cat’s mew. At the third storey, I looked out the hole and it was looking up at me. How cute was that?! Then it mew longer and louder. I decided to climb back up to my house and asked my aunt to help me get some cat food. When I had fed that stray cat, I heard another mew from below. I knew it would be that other cat with the collar on its neck. Too bad I only had one pack of cat food so I had to tell the other cat sorry. Aww… I pity that cat. I told it to go to the second storey if it wants some food. Go steal some food from that cat. Then I left since I knew my dilly dally time limit was up. If I get another pack of cat food, I was going to be later than late. Sorry cat, maybe next time.
I reached school and joined my class close to the first break. At least I wasn’t the latest to join the class. I had a classmate who came in later than me. But who cares? I wouldn’t care because lateness is so common to me. I know, I know it’s not good. Punctuality is important and trust me, I’m working on that. So I was thinking of leaving the class halfway. But I ended up staying all the way to 6P. Well now I have a full attendance… although I was late.
Vivien is coming back tomorrow! At least from tomorrow onwards, I know I have a friend whose back in Singapore. I wouldn’t have to think twice then realized my friend is in another country. Vivien!! I can’t wait to see you again!! Have a safe flight home.
I don’t want to make promises because I know I can’t trust my words at the moment. Not right now, not at the state where I am now. But I am at least going to try to come to school every day. Even if it means I am going to be late. I will try to find even the slightest thing that will motivate me to go to school. I just can’t be bothered with school currently. I hope for a change in me. Hopefully after Ramadhan, when I don’t have to wake up at 4 or 5 in the morning and fell back to sleep after eating, only to realize I can’t wake up on time. My current habit and lifestyle is actually taking its toll on me. I get very tired easily and my stomach hasn’t been kind on me.
That’s all for now! See you soon again.
Countdown: 8 more days!
I should be sleeping right now but after I had a small meal, I wasn’t sleepy. I know I had said this to myself a couple of times already that I am going to update this blog (if possible) everyday but it looks like I can’t keep up with myself. It makes me wonder though, if I can’t keep up with myself, what other things can I keep up with? School? No. I’m terrible at it. The talk-about things in Hollywood? Another definite no. I’m worst with that. I always often end up in my own world anyway. A world where nothing much matters to the people around me. Why do I care so much then? I don’t know. I guess I’m just trying to find my own purpose.
It seems like I am always in deep thought at this hour, if I am awake. Profound thinking and always trying to make sense of things. Trying to find reasons and ways on how I can make things better; things that always matter to me. Who cares if others think I’m insane or up to nothing that’s worth it? I always have my own reasons and feelings; what I like and what I don’t, what’s good for me and what’s not. It’s just that maybe I never told you before. You know I always keep things hidden. You it even matter to you?
I think that I should just update this blog now than to wait for later. This idea sounds better to me right now than the phrase “better late than never”. And now my mind is blank. I don’t know what else to say. Okay, this is what I’m doing. I am listening to Ria’s “Misteri Jam 12”. And what is on my mind? If I could wake up later and school. This just sucks.
I think I should stop now and talk to my stomach. Ask it why it has been creating problem for me. It has been bothering me much. Talking about stomach, it reminded me of the chapter I had stopped at in Breaking Dawn. My niece bought the final book for the Twilight Saga. So far, the book had been very interesting. I’m going to continue to read it every night. I mean it, every night. I’m sure I can do this better than updating my blog.
Oh, one final thing. I said I had a pending entry on my Sentosa trip. I was thinking I am just going to scrap that entry out. It had been weeks now and I still haven’t got back to finishing the draft. What you can do is go to my Friendster profile and look at the new pictures I had uploaded. You’ll know which pictures are taken at Sentosa. Haha, see what I said about keeping up with myself? I’m pretty bad at it. And I had only uploaded new pictures on my Friendster profile. I’m going to do just the same on my other networking sites. Am I THAT busy? I definitely need to work on my punctuality!
Okay, this will definitely be THE last thing. The countdown to my birthday had already hit the last ten days. I am putting a personal message on my MSN to mention about it. I wonder if any of my new friends would notice it. Or at least get the idea that my birthday is coming, if I didn’t write obvious things about it. Okay, don’t call me “craving for attention” but I’m just curious on who actually paid attention to me or have me in their minds. It wouldn’t hurt me bad if none of them cared or notices. Because I know I still have my usual darlings and sweethearts and loved ones. Haha, no, I’m not boot-licking you people into doing something for my birthday. My intentions are genuine and sincere. Because I know you all love me much. Sometimes too much that I feel like I don’t deserve your kindness and care. Like I actually feel like I do not know how to repay them. You people are awesome, I swear. So awesome and sometimes so not cool that it makes me want to kick your ass that I just don’t want to have you replaced. Definitely a great bunch of people God had planned for me to meet in my life journey. So anyway, coming back to the personal message on MSN, at least one person, a new friend, had noticed. He actually shocked me for knowing what it meant. You’re awesome, dude. I hope we can make this project work out. :)
Countdown: 9 more days!
There’s nothing much to say about today but the day slipped by pretty smooth. I was just glad when class ended because it is Friday after all and we all can say hello to weekend. Ooh yeah!
I will be breaking fast with the old classmates tomorrow. My dearest friends, we shall meet again! I miss you guys so much. I can’t wait for the noise, laughter, jokes, stupidity, mockeries and the stares that we will invite. Tomorrow is going to be oh-so-fun! I hope it will! We’re going to have to take lots and lots of photos together, especially candid ones. I love them. Trust me; the photos are going to be for good use.
Another jamming session with the boys on Sunday. Yeah, I love jamming. I am going to try to be a better member of the band and we’re going to rock out during jamming, yeah? Kaye, I want you to be free so that you can help us out. You better do your report fast!
Another busy weekend means that time will pass by faster than having to spend the weekends at home; like how it used to be. I think it is great that you keep yourself busy but of course, it should be in a good way. Don’t exhaust yourself for reasons that are not worth your time.
My bloody good friend Mark wants me to say this: I miss you! Actually, what I miss about you is the “play fight” outside class. And I miss irritating you and you’d fight back like a gorilla. Okay, I am being very mean right now. But it is fasting month and I don’t want to lie. Oops! One more week to go and I’ll see you back in school, okay? Meanwhile, have fun at the Poly Forum. Enjoy your “holiday” cause I find it like a privilege for you. Ass!
Countdown: 13 more days!
I am very sleepy right now. If I were to lie down and close my eyes, I could fall asleep. However, I don’t want to sleep yet. I don’t want the night to pass by so fast. I don’t want to wake up knowing a brand new day had arrived. It is just how I’m feeling right now. Don’t ask why.
School had been okay. The new classmates are very warm and welcoming. A great bunch of people, I can say. True colours are yet to be shown, haha. So far, I don’t seem to have been abiding by the rules like how I used to in Semester 1. Yeah, maybe this is my true colour. I know places to sleep, chill and hide at… thanks to somebody! Ehem! One day I am going to do all those things. Skip a class, rebel for a day and sleep the whole day. Oh yeah… sooner or later you’re going to find me missing from home and class. Until then, enjoy my presence and company. Heh!
Ever since I had been fasting, my stomach had been creating problem for me. It’s like there is a gas in my tummy. It hurts, k? I can’t figure out what exactly is the cause. At the same time, I don’t think I am losing any weight. Oh well!
Did I tell you that I went for Avril Lavigne’s concert? All I had been saying is this: if she calls her tour “The Best Damn Tour”, I’d call her concert “The Best Damn Concert”. Too bad I didn’t snap any pictures because my camera phone cannot take good pictures from far and I didn’t bring my digital camera because it would be such a hassle. I was rushing at that point of time. Well, my digital camera pretty sucked too. It doesn’t satisfy me when it takes pictures in the dark. Esli recorded the performances though so we didn’t really leave any memories just stuck in our minds. Oh yeah, I bought a t-shirt and badges from the merchandise store.
Hmm… I hope I’ll remember to make a wish tonight. I had been missing it for the past few nights. And that sucks.
Countdown: 15 more days!
I made it through the first day! Oh yes, I did!
I have nothing to update as for now. Even if I want to write about school, it’s too early to tell. Anyway, I am not God to judge anyone.
I have a pending entry though. I haven’t finish writing it. On Sunday, I went to Sentosa with my father, brother, nephew and niece. At first I wasn’t in the mood for Sentosa but after awhile there, I felt better. Yes, I had fun after all. One big reason was because I interacted with animals! I’ll be putting up pictures in the entry so you can check out what I was up to on that day.
Hmm… 5 more minutes. I am going to make another wish tonight.
My IG is having a performance this Saturday, 6th September 2008 at Fort Canning Park. Our performance is at 5pm. I am not going to force you to come and watch. If you feel like coming and seeing what I am up to, you are very much welcome. Here are the details again:
Date: Saturday, 6th September 2008
Time: 5pm
Venue: Fort Canning Park
So… what else should I include in this entry? I’m not too sure. I’m not intending to write much tonight. Oh, I just wanted to say that this weekend I will be very busy. A part of me prefers to be busy because at least I am doing something. Another part of me prefers that I stay at home this weekend because school had started. But who cares? Sometimes the busier you are, doing the things that you like, just means that you are living. Not just existing in this world. You get what I mean?
Alright, I should stop now. Midnight’s coming. I should sleep real soon. Another day of school tomorrow and it means another day of holding on. I hope tomorrow will go smoothly. I will try not to make the same mistakes as I did last semester.
Time: 5pm
Venue: Fort Canning Park
So… what else should I include in this entry? I’m not too sure. I’m not intending to write much tonight. Oh, I just wanted to say that this weekend I will be very busy. A part of me prefers to be busy because at least I am doing something. Another part of me prefers that I stay at home this weekend because school had started. But who cares? Sometimes the busier you are, doing the things that you like, just means that you are living. Not just existing in this world. You get what I mean?
Alright, I should stop now. Midnight’s coming. I should sleep real soon. Another day of school tomorrow and it means another day of holding on. I hope tomorrow will go smoothly. I will try not to make the same mistakes as I did last semester.
Countdown: 22 more days!
Oh my god.
Let’s be honest.
I’m feeling emo-ish right now.
I’m listening to all the sad songs I can think of and/or feel like listening to right now.
I’m going to make this quick.
I don’t want to say I have all the time in the world right now.
Because I really don’t.
Tonight is my last night.
Tomorrow is a new beginning.
I promise you, I am not ready for tomorrow.
I swear.
I feel like it’s the end of summer.
All my fun would only be left in the form of memories.
And music may trigger the emotions.
God, I want a longer holiday.
I wish someone would just burn the school down.
Or something would just happen to that area in this country.
I'm scared, I swear.
Help me.
This is not fun at all.
All I can hope for is that everything would be alright.
And my new classmates would be one of the nicest people I am ever going to meet.
Well, all the best to myself!
Going to start it all over again and I hope I could do it better this time.
Here I go!
Countdown: 23 more days!
