I’m saying goodbye to everything now before it’s too late.
1) Don’t expect me to be online late at night anytime soon.
2) I won’t be able to entertain your emails if you needed my reply as soon as possible.
3) I will miss the convenience of the Internet pretty soon.
As dramatic as can be, I’m tired of trying to not care. I feel like I’m using up a lot of my energy to just pretend like the little things don’t bother me. At the rate I’m going, I feel like I’m losing grip and losing touch on a lot of the things and people. And I didn’t mean to.
Everything that’s happening from home to school, I feel like the weight on my shoulders is gaining. I feel the strain on my body; physically and mentally. Maybe saying goodbye and the chance to be able to hide real soon would do a little trick. I just have to adjust to changes. Get everything settled in school, and went home feeling easy. The only headache I might be getting is from the noise at home but that is only minimal, compared to the work from school if I decide to finish them at home.
I don’t know when exactly the change will be implemented and how long exactly will it be. Things are not going to be easy for me. Everything that’s going to happen soon, may everything went well. Thanks for being there for me for all these times and keeping me company. I won’t be as active online as I am now real soon.
Imagine you have a thirteen year old son and he cuts himself. You got a call from the teacher counsellor and she told you some things. No matter how well you think you know your son, there’s always a side of him that he’ll always keep it to himself. A side of him so dark that you’ll hardly notice it’s around. Something that you’ll never know exists; but it does.
The only thing that you want right now is the truth. To be able to read his mind might lift some weight off your shoulders. And ease the worrying and the pain that your mind is carrying. Sadly, you know it’s never that simple. He said to you that it was just a dare but deep in your thoughts, you worry if there might be something else.
You know what hurts the most? To have your loved one making you cry.
Maybe if my parents found out things that I had done that they had never known, maybe it hurt that much.
My Sunday was almost ruined by an unenergetic and almost solemn jamming session. Little did I know that, the day was about to change by a series of unexpected incidents. Being human, you really wouldn’t know what’s coming into your path.
I was told by my nephew that I won a claypot rice cooker as I was on my way home. What’s a claypot rice cooker? It’s a slow cooking rice cooker. Imagine a normal rice cooker, just that the thing inside, or the bottom of it, is something made of ceramic.
The box.
That ceramic thing.
Once I was home, I heard that my Dad is going to send my first brother to work. My second brother then suggested that we should go to Popeye’s Chicken and Biscuits at the airport, since we are going there. You see, my second brother seems to have been craving for Popeye’s food since a couple of weeks ago. So we got ready and get change and during the process, a relative whom we haven’t seen in awhile came without any notice. He always does that. He would appear at our door unannounced. But it’s great to seem after a long time. So the family chit-chat with him for about an hour or so. Then we left for airport!
After sending off my brother at T2, we went to Popeye’s Chicken and Biscuits at T3. We had such a scrumptious dinner there. I knew I was enjoying my dinner because I was so hungry. I hadn’t eaten a meal all day. When the rest of the family had finished their part, I was still nibbling on my food. As I was about to finish, I saw Esna’s sister walking in towards the counter. Esna’s nephew was hiding behind the wooden panel and he saw me. As I smiled at him, he gave me that cute smile and ran off. Oh my god, kids look so naughty.
At the end of the day, I realised that a few turn of events can change your day; be it good or bad. I know I ended the day knowing I was a happy child.
Today was a mix of everything. I know for a fact that I was lonely today. Apart from my Dad, nephew, niece and I, the rest of the family went across the border to settle some stuffs. I was left alone at home to take care of the house and keep an eye on my nephew and niece when they got home. If there were nobody at home, they wouldn’t be able to come in because they don’t have the house keys with them. To be exact, they weren’t given.
If it weren’t for my ordered tops getting delivered here, my day would have been much dull. I ordered three tops online and I received all of them today. I was in high spirit. I tried them on and I like how they fit on me and I was so pleased. And when my Dad got home in the evening, I got to know that my necklace had also reached! Yes, I was excited. I’ve been waiting for it.
By noon, I still haven’t eaten anything. I thought of getting my food through home delivery but after searching for what to cook online, I ended up cooking egg-fry fried rice. It’s so much better than having to spend my money.
I skipped IG training today because I had to stay home. Last night, I was told that there’s a meeting and obviously, I couldn’t attend it. The rest of the family was home late and I don’t have enough time to attend the meeting on time. I was telling myself this last night. When I am so free, that I don’t have anything on, there weren’t things to settle. But when I’m busy, or when I usually have other plans, alot of things would start appearing and being thrown at you. Life is so unfair. It is, in fact, a bitch.
