Sunday, 9 November 2008 @7:55 pm
Sekaran II concert was nice! The starting was rather dull. SJI plays the Balinese gamelan instruments. I don’t blame them for the uninteresting start because they’re still students and are not at the professional level. After their segment, it was the interval and lucky we could freshen ourselves up a bit. Only after the intervals that the concert was starting to kick in. Gamelan Asmaradana, the professional gamelan ensemble in Singapore, starts playing their pieces. This is the time when my parents told me they were enjoying it. The ending segment was the collaboration with Gamma Rays, the fusion group. If I’m not wrong, they played 3 pieces. I love the second piece. It was very soothing. It has a mix of sad yet happy and positive emotion. Then the third piece was the one that got stuck in my head when I saw the preview of their sound check. We wanted encore but we didn’t get one. GA people were really keen when they were playing, mixed with enthusiasm and hyperactivity, especially during the fusion part. Not forgetting to mention my fellow Gamelan Naga Kencana group mates, it was nice to see them perform in the audience view. They deserve to be up there. I bet it was nerve-wrecking to have some solo parts. Way to go, mates! Despite only having the theatre half full, it was still a great concert. The audiences were loud enough to make it sound like it was more than that. I hope to have another gamelan concert like this back in Reflections next year. Who knows it would be better? And honestly, who said gamelan would be boring? Sekaran II definitely rocks!
I basically have a drowsy weekend because I have a cold and I ate the flu pill. What happened to me was that I get sleepy most of the time and to be honest, I don’t remember why. Until at some point, I then remember that I had swallowed a pill. This is not my first time forgetting that I had taken a pill. It can get dangerous, really. But lucky I don’t drive cars or machineries or I might just get some people killed!As much as I don’t want to get involved in this, I can’t ignore the fact that I know you. And as a person who knows you, it is somewhat my duty to help you recognize what you have been doing to yourself and also, to others. I don’t care how angry you are or how much you feel like you had given up on someone or something but seriously, you are an adult. No more in kindergarten, no more in primary school and no more in secondary school. In fact, you are older, in your face! Adults talk things out; they don’t pretend and make things invisible. We are only human but it’s the devil in us that are blinding us from seeing the truth. It’s the devil in us that are making us ignorant and selfish. It’s the devil in us that are making us give in to temptation. And don’t you dare blame the devil because it’s you who are supposed to fight the devil. Don’t bow to the devil but go defeat that devil. As long as you refuse to fight that devil, your heart remains as hard as stone and as cold as ice. And it really won’t do any good to you. But hell, who am I to say this to you? I’m as human as you are, and I too, have a devil in me that I am constantly fighting. Jealousy, envy, anger… I have all those in me. But I don’t want those feelings to take over me and blind me from seeing the good. I’m not perfect, hell no, I’m not. But I’d rather not have such a simple or trivial things ruin what I have and built over the years. I know, you and me are different. In fact, everyone is different. So go take your own fucking time and look into the things that had gone wrong. They say that it’s better late than never so I hope you realize that too. And if it’s you who ended up fucking this whole thing up in the end, don’t blame me if I become the bitch. The things you’ve done for me, would not matter anymore. It’s the things that you’ve done to others that would really disappoint me. It would really alter the way I see in you. And trust me, I wouldn’t be the only one saying that.
