Sunday, 3 January 2010 @8:54 pm
I feel like I could kill myself right now. Just stab my own heart and end this nausea. It’s back to school tomorrow and only God knows how much I’m hating it. I really don’t want to go to school. It’s not the people that I don’t like, it’s the things that I had to go through. It’s such a bummer, I swear it feels like it to me. I’m only left with 6 weeks of school but it feels so god damn long to me. I’m not sure if I can cope with it. If I fail myself, and especially you, please forgive me. I don’t really have the strength to carry on at this moment. Right now, just to think of going through one day feels like a week to me. How am I even able to go through one week? Wish me some luck, I really need some.
This is belated but HAPPY NEW YEAR! It’s 2010, I kind of can’t believe it. I wasn’t overly excited for 2010, but I can’t say I don’t look forward to what’s in store for me. But what’s first on my list is romance. Romance in 2010. Doesn’t it sounds nice? I hope to bump into romance, and be content with what it can do for me.
I’m going to try to blog often too. I know I’ve said it a couple of times, and it’s not such an easy thing to do. But I’m going to try. I guess the most important word for me in 2010 shall be ‘try’. Who knows, I shall write a review of every month on how the month has been for me. And, I was just thinking, maybe 2010 could be the year where old habits die, and new habits are cultivated. Habits are hard to break, but like I said, there’s always the word ‘try’. And new habits does not always mean good habits. It could be any habit.
Alright, I’ll update again soon. Wish me luck for the next 6 weeks! I want to feel like I deserve the next vacation, but in order to do that, I really have to be firm on myself. And I know I can’t do that, because I’m weak right now. So, all the best to me. I shall be random to take silly things off my mind and chest.